Dear Belle,

Don't be silly again. He is not serious to you. You are not in his mind, he just treats you as a toy that he can play it if he feel bored. He just playing with you, and he won't do anything for you even spending 1 hour time for you.

Don't be silly again, you know it clear, you can judge it by common sense. Even a kid knows that he never cherish you and never care about you.

Stop that Belle. Forget about him and not hurting yourself anymore. That's enough........

Be smart, be rational and behave yourself. Stop stupid, clear your mind and get back yourself.

Another 2 months since we contacted again.

Its an excuse to buy time for each other from the iPod.

We both deceiving ourselves, particularly me.

The logic is clear, 4 people hurts in a relationship.

All win in long run if it break, or 1 hurt........

The answer is clear.

But the problem is "when", when and how can it clearly cut and no more confuse.

To say goodbye to someone you love is never easy, particularly forever.

And who know if its forever? And the difference between the 1st goodbye and the 20th goodbye?

God, please give me guildline and direction for how to go. Please give me power for how to live.

Please.

God, can you hear? Why don't you give me feedback, I asked you so many times all these years. Why?