Friday, August 10, 2007

Without you, life seems peace and silence. Still with ups and down sometimes but not as fluctuated as before. Its not the first time, since we always repeat and repeat the fault. I don't want to repeat again, so many people involved in this relationship. There, in fact no space for me. And you never intend to give me space. I understand where I am. I just a temporary substitues, you don't need it, sick of me, and will forget me one day you find me useless. You won't agree it, as you don't want to face the truth, your subconscious mind.

It's not about right and wrong, it just about the real you that you never discovered.

But I still upset at the moment. Maybe you already forgot me in the same time.

Anyway, all the best........

Annabel Peale

Private - 3:39 PM

Friday, August 10, 2007

Met her (his wife) in my dream last night, told me that their lives is good now. And he treats her better than before, everything back to normal as they used to be.......

Don't really know how I feel. Complicated. If my conscious and subconscious mind varied?

Or in fact, nothing had changed before, so that nothing need to be back to normal?

Don't think too much, should feel guilty to the past instead.

Annabel Peale

Private - 1:47 AM

Friday, August 10, 2007

Bon Bon is sick, vomitted couples of times, didn't sleep well last night.

The doctor (Veterinary) gave her injection and some pills.

Discussed with him if I should give her a birth control surgery for her good health, and he suggested.

Bon Bon, get well soon, and have a good good sleep tonight. Tomorrow, you will feel well and as smart as Yo Yo.

Love you always, Yo & Bon.

Annabel Peale

Public - 1:39 AM

Thursday, August 09, 2007

Economics Strategy Assignment, must complete it in 2 days - not over searching info and misleaded by those irrevelant webs.

Game Theory, cooperaton strategy, prison dilema, will handle you soon.

Annabel Peale

Public - 4:02 AM

Thursday, August 09, 2007

These days, so many calls but I didn't pick the phone.

When feeling down and depressed, no mood to talk, don't want to pretend and wear a smiling face. Somehow, I don't know how to express myself, particulary during my hard time. Always think that if not mentioning the unhappiness, you will forget once day, and that nothing happen. Really hope all bad things can be swallowed, and the next day you wake up, all disappeared or it was a dream, a nightmare only. Actually, I dream.

What I need is only some privacy, don't want to face anybody. Maybe hiding myself behave like a turtle, but I don't need any mercy...........

If nothing improve, the situation still adverse. Just let me killed by the environment and myself. I deserve for that.

Sorry to everybody who used to call me recently, including Denise, Tony, Ivy, Vivien, Chris, Joseph...and also Tetsuo (few weeks ago).

Annabel Peale

Private - 2:34 AM